Sick days

In the 13 years I waited and waited till the good Lord gave us our 1st child, I never thought or dreamed of the long nights. The nights where the child is so cranky that even holding them does not always work. The endless ear infections, high temps and whining.. oh the whining..and the major loss of sleep. I have tried to find joy in this, yet none comes to mind.. until after I started following a mothers blog of her dieing child. I now think how grateful I am to be able to hear that whining one more day. I look at my precious angels and wonder when the Lord will take them home and am grateful for the time I get to be with them and raise them.

I often feel guilty when I get these feelings, since we tried for so long to have a child. I wonder when I complaining how the Lord is looking down on me after years of prayers, begging, pleading, to have just one child. Watching all my friends having many, working in a school system where children were having abortions like candy and giving up children left and right and getting so angry as to why I could not have just one. Then the time came.. (Gods time) I not only had one but 2. 2 very special blessings.

Today I was reminded of that. Being so tired from being up night after night with Blake being sick and now starting it with Alexia, I just sat in front of the computer doing mindless things when out of my bedroom came the joy and laughter of the two of them playing tag. It was the best sound I have heard in a long time.

Thinking of that mother who lost her child and the complaining I was doing over loss sleep.. really put things into reality for me..God has given me 2 blessings to treasure, hold tight, play with, raise in his image. Most of all to be thankful for each moment I have with them... day or night.. even when they are sick and cranky!

Sunday March 14th 2010

Ok, this is my first attempt to blogging but I have found I am not recording life with my family and I need to keep record for my children's sake.

Today is Sunday and we did not go to church. Alexia was up all night with a temp over 100 and coughing. Blake has just gotten over the temp a few days ago and it appears that Alexia is now the sick one. The hard part is staying up all night.

I slept with Alexia trying to rub her back and making her drink water to help so she did not get dehydrated. I even got her a pop-cycle trying to help with the cough. Finally she went to sleep about 4 am so I came back downstairs to go to bed. Bruce was sick as well so he was not able to get up with the kids. Blake did well but was up at 7am. Oh and the time changed overnight so we had to deal with that as well.

Last night we went to Incredible pizza and had so much fun. I can't remember the last time I had that much family fun. No crying, arguing or yelling because of stress. Just a really nice time. I really did not want to leave but I could see it was late and we thought we would make it to church so we did.

The night before was Alexia's Spring program with A to Z learning. I can't believe how well she is doing. When we went to Blake's follow up appt. she sound a Green Eggs and Ham book and sounded out the words to almost 80% of it.. I was so proud of her. I went out and bought 4 of the Dr. Seuss Books including Green Eggs and Ham. At her concert they read words, sang songs and showed off their number and letters they chose. That was the best decision we ever made putting her in that school.

Well it is late so I will sign off but not before I say, thank you Lord for may family. They make me proud everyday. I love them very much!